Who knew something this great could hit me so hard, so fast?

This poem was written by a terminally ill young girl in a New York Hospital .







It was sent by



a medical doctor - Make sure to read what is in the closing statement AFTER THE POEM.








SLOW DANCE







Have you ever watched kids







On a merry-go-round?







Or listened to the rain







Slapping on the ground?







Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?







Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?







You better slow down.







Don't dance so fast.







Time is short.







The music won't last.







Do you run through each day







On the fly?




When you ask How are you?







Do you hear the reply?







When the day is done







Do you lie in your bed







With the next hundred chores







Running through your head?







You'd better slow down







Don't dance so fast.







Time is short.







The music won't last.







Ever told your child,







We'll do it tomorrow?







And in your haste,







Not see his



sorrow?







Ever lost touch,







Let a good friendship die







Cause you never had time







To call and say,"Hi"







You'd better slow down.







Don't dance so fast.







Time is short.







The music won't last.







When you run so fast to get somewhere







You miss half the fun of getting there.







When you worry and hurry through your day,







It is like an unopened gift....







Thrown away.







Life is not a race.




Do take it slower







Hear the music







Before the song is over.

I got to thinking about where I was a year ago. I was miserable, but I didn't know it. I knew it on some level, but I didn't think that I could do anything to change it. I thought it was exactly where I was supposed to be.
I know better now. I'm happier than I have been in years. Partly because of the last few weeks, but mostly because I have become more confident in who I am and I know what I want, and what I don't want, from life. :)

It's been a long time. That's all I'm going to say.

So tonight I'm doing a program to make valentines for the patients at St. Jude's Children's Hospital. I was excited about it when I got the email from them saying it was ok to do, but now it has even more meaning. I was talking to my mom about it last night and I found out that St. Jude's was my grandfather's favorite charity. She said it would have "made him happy." I'm hoping I get plenty of valentines to send to the kids. We'll have to wait and see.

It's been 12 years, but no one has forgotten. We'll all love you forever.

You Should Have Been Born Under:

You are solid, methodical, and you do things right the first time. Even when no one else does, you always believe in yourself. You tend to see the world in black and white, right or wrong. A good memory and eye for details means you tend to thrive at near impossible tasks. You are most compatible with a Snake or Rooster.

Your Heart Is Pink

In relationships, you like to play innocent - even though you aren't. Each time you fall in love, it's like falling for the first time. Your flirting style: Coy Your lucky first date: Picnic in the park Your dream lover: Is both caring and dominant What you bring to relationships: Romance

Your Wrath Quotient: 50%

Ouch! You've got a bit of a temper going on there, don't you? Just make sure to keep your revenge fantasies just that... fantasies only!

Never Date a Cancer

Clingy, emotional, and very private - it's hard to escape a Cancer's clutches. And while Cancer will want to know everything about you, they're anything but open in return. Instead try dating: Leo, Sagittarius, Gemini, or Aquarius

**Should have taken that one a few years ago**

You Are 71% American

Most times you are proud to be an American. Though sometimes the good ole US of A makes you cringe Still, you know there's no place better suited to be your home. You love your freedom and no one's going to take it away from you!

You are 33% Sagittarius

I was born at the end...

Your Aura is Green

You're very driven, competitive, and even a bit jealous. However, you seek out balance in your life - and you usually achieve it! The purpose of your life: inspiring others to be better Famous greens include: Tony Robbins, Donald Trump, Martha Stewart Careers for you to try: Guru, CEO, Talk Show Host

Your Hidden Talent

You are both very knowledgeable and creative. You tend to be full of new ideas and potential - big potential. Ideas like yours could change the world, if you build them. As long as you don't stop working on your dreams, you'll get there.

You Are 48% Republican

You aren't a full fledged Republican yet, but it's probably the party that fits you best. You probably consider yourself an independent Republican. You usually support the party, but you also think for yourself!

You Are An ISTJ

The Duty Fulfiller You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done. You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings. Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you. Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy. You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer.

What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You

You are a giving soul. Way too giving in fact. You often get stuck doing the dirty work that no one else will do. Your look is put together, classic, and stylish. You always look fashionable without trying. You are a very outgoing person. You are true to yourself, and you never hold back. In relationships, you tend to be very romantic and demanding. You'll treat your partner like gold, but you expect a lot in return.

Your Scholastic Strength Is Evaluating

You are great at looking at many details and putting them all together. You are talented at detecting subtle trends, accuracy, and managing change. You should major in: Statistics Speech Conflict studies Communication Finance Medicine

I made it through the day I had been dreading for a while. I think I'm finally going to be ok.

"Unhappy Anniversary"

You ask me, how am I?
Well I'm still standing, aren't I?
That's something, that's one thing that's gone my way
It's so hard, to go out, like everything ok now
When inside, I still cry for yesterday

This is my unhappy anniversary
But I lie, saying it's just another day
This is my unhappy anniversary, oh

I know it's so stupid to feel brokenhearted
I wonder if you know just how much I hurt
I drink up and think up a toast to numb the hours
To get through without you is so hard today
Cause it's

This is my unhappy anniversary
But I lie, saying it's just another day
This is my unhappy anniversary, oh

And now it's near midnight, a few minutes and I
Return to get back to my former life
Pretending our ending was not so bad, I know that
It's time to escape you until next year
When it's

This is my unhappy anniversary
But I lie, saying it's just another day
This is my unhappy anniversary, oh

This is my unhappy anniversary
But I smile like it's just another day
It's just my unhappy anniversary
It's just my unhappy anniversary

Well, the fall semester of 2006 is quickly coming to an end. This was officially my last fall semester of "real" classes. This time next year I'll be finishing my student teaching. Weird. I've learned a lot about myself this semester. I am certainly more happy than I have ever been and I have learned to stand up for myself and what is right. God sure is funny about the way things happen. I have wonderful friends that go back to my very first day of freshman year, I have great friends who I only met because we're in EVERY elementary education class together, I have new RA friends. Never before have I been so privledged to have so many friends. These are the friends forever. I know that now more than ever. I only talk to one person I went to school with before college, and she's in Florida. I'm glad this semester is over though. It was rough on me to get to a point where I could say I'm happy and ok with the events of this summer. I'm still not ok with some things, but hopefully, with a little more time, I'll get better and be ready for whatever God chooses to throw at me next. He doesn't give me any more than I can handle, and I've never been as sure of that as I am now. I don't know how this Christmas break is going to play out. It's going to be interesting at best, horrible at worst. But Heather is coming and that is so great! I'm super excited. And I'll finally turn 20. I'll always be the "baby" of the group, but at least I'll no longer be the only teenager in the group!!!

Well, since I'm supposed to be reading 56 pages of geography now, I should stop this.

Merry Christmas to all. God Bless.

Twas the night before finals,
and all through the college,
The students were praying for last minute knowledge.
Most were quite sleepy, but none touched their beds,
While visions of essays danced in their heads.
Out in the pub, a few were still drinking,
And hoping that liquor would loosen their thinking.
In my own room, I had been pacing,
And dreading exams I soon would be facing.
My roommate was speechless, her nose in her books,
And my comments to her drew unfriendly looks.
I drained all the coffee, and brewed a new pot,
No longer caring that my nerves were shot.
I stared at my notes, but my thoughts were muddy,
My eyes were a blur, I just couldn't study.
"Some pizza might help, "I said with a shiver,
But each place I called refused to deliver.
I'd nearly concluded that life was too cruel,
With futures depending on grades had in school.
When all of a sudden, our door opened wide,
And Patron Saint Put It Off ambled inside.
His spirit was careless, his manner was mellow,
He looked down at me, and started to bellow:
"What kind of student would make such a fuss,
To toss back at professors what they tossed at us?"
"On Cliff Notes! On Crib Notes! On Last Year's Exams!
On Wingit and Slingit, and last minute crams!"
His message delivered, he vanished from sight,
But we heard him laughing outside in the night.
"Your professors have screwed you, so just do your best,
Happy Finals to All, And to All, a Good Test!"

You sucked me in, and played my mind
Just like a toy, you would crank and wind
You left me lyin'in a pool or doubt
But you're still thinkin'you're the Daddy Mac
You should've known better but you didn't
And I can't go back
Oh, life goes on
And it's only gonna make me strong
Its a fact, once you get on board
Say good-bye 'cause you can't go back
Oh it's a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where I'm at, is my life before me
Got this feelin'that I can't go back
Wish I knew then, what I know now
You held all the cards, and sold me out
Baby shame on you if you fool me once
Shame on me if you fool me twice
You've been a pretty hard case to crack
should've known better but I didn't
And I can't go back
Oh life goes on
And it's only gonna make me strong
It's a fact, once you get on board
Say good-bye 'cause you can't go back
Oh it's a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where I'm at, is my life before me
Got this feelin'thatI can't go back
na, na, na, na, na
Life goes on
Na, na, na, na
It made me strong
Oh yeah, got a feelin' that I can't go back
Life goes on,(it's only gonna
make me strong), oh yeah,
Life goes on, and on, and on
Shame on you if you fool me once
Shame on me if you fool me twice
But you've been a pretty hard case to crack
Should've known better but I didn't
And I can't go back
Oh life goes on
And it's only gonna make me strong
It's a fact, once you get on board
Say good-bye 'cause you can't go back
Oh it's a fight, and I really wanna get it right
Where I'm at, is my life before me
Got this feelin'that I can't go back
Na, na, na, na, na
Life goes on
Na, na, na, na
It made me strong
oh yeah
Got a feelin'that I can't go back 




Thank you for making me see that my mistake doesn't have to rule my life.  You're the best!

When I look at my life, it's no wonder that I'm crazy.

why do people keep shooting at schools?

you wouldn't want to be me either